Scary Monsters - River's Answer #1

[hopefulnebula]

Title: Scary Monsters
Author: hopefulnebula
Rating: PG to be safe.
Summary: River, at the Academy.
Written for big_damn_quests round 1, challenge 1: "Describe your greatest fear, and how it has changed your life."

I wanted to do something different, especially given River's state of mind at and immediately after the Academy.

hands.
They reach inside
with eyes to see, to change
           They reach in
take me and move me where i don’t want to go
(let me out let me out let me fly from here)
They make me new but i like me old
no more meddling, please
please
simon, you’re coming (you have to be) take the hands off don’t let Them touch me
They’re hurting us i hear screams
            echoing in empty rooms
so many living ghosts
and They’re still here i feel Them They’re everywhere at once
changing, shaping and i feel
i feel everything
i don’t want this i didn’t ask for this let me out
is this the price of knowledge? my name is not eve. it never was.
she’s having a nightmare.
scary monsters, They say like i can’t hear
and i wonder if They know
They’re talking about
Their own selves.

just take the hands away…
simon come help me.