Challenge 2 round 2

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Title: Willing To Forget
Author: Frodolyn 
Character: Wash
Challenge: Round 2, Challenge 2:  What moment in your life has caused you to feel the greatest amount of shame?
Word Count: 368
Author's Notes: comments- critisism- feed me. 

What moment in your life has caused you to feel the greatest amount of shame?

           

            Well I tell you, I’m not often ashamed with myself. My woman, oh she’s a fighter like I’ll never be and that can be pretty shameful in itself some days, but we get alone in our bunk I know exactly what she needs from me. I might be whipped, but I’m pretty good with the weaponry myself. Practice makes perfect I would always say. First girl I ever been with, now that was shameful – but I’m a quick learner, and very inventive.

            Really I don't know how you expect us to answer this, embarrassing moment, now that sounds like something girls talk about at sleepovers while they paint their nails and do each others hair. Not that I’ve ever been around when this is happening. But embarrassing isn’t the same as shameful. Shame is something dark, something secret, that - you don't bring up at a sleepover. Not unless it’s a manly sleepover with lots of alcohol. And in those cases it sorta slips out rather than people asking. Usually people around you to drunk to remember in any case.

            You really wanna know eh? Well I did promise to seriously answer these.

            In the war, I flew this real pretty independent bird. Was flyin1800 feet aboveGreenleaf, that’s low, and I got grazed by Alliance, crashed us right into the rock. Still can’t believe it, it’s like some kind of cruel joke isn’t it? Best the Orion flight academy had to offer and I crashed her first turn. We were down in this valley, people died. People captured, me included. It wasn’t some kind of day camp in that prison. It really wasn’t.

            Let’s just say there were no shadow puppets.

            And I didn’t stay there long.

            Left a lot of people behind in that prison, but I swear to you if I had staid I wouldn’t have lasted. Would’ve died there like the rest of them.

            Hell you don't understand. Neither did they. Neither do I.

            But that’s a part of my life I’m more than willing to forget.

           

            Want some of this … protein? I swear Jayne didn’t cook it.